Need some help for real!

There is something weird about me. Which I'm a bit worried about. You should also be. Recently I've come to realize that I have a weak heart.
You see, I study Film Science so basically I'm in touch with a lot of movie nerds and competent people within that area. Lot of them are off course big fans of splash movies with lot of violence, blood and sharp & shiny material to kill with. All of them including my old grandmother have the heart and the nerves to watch this kind of garbage. Not only that, some of them (Right now I'm talking about some people in general and not only the ones in my class) can actually enjoy it.

I've tried in my whole life to watch that kind of movie. And you know what, I HAVE ALWAYS AVOIDED TO WATCH KILL BILL! Just because of that fact. Or you can call it fear or that I suspect that my heart is working with batteries. Now, don't you dare come to me and say that the violence which is used in Kill Bill is not that bad. Fuck you! It is! I've seen part of it and my heart can't handle it so don't. Just....don't...!

Now there is another funny part. Or should I say sad....?!
I was watching a Swedish TV serial on the other night while lying on the bed, trying to sleep and the shit was totally gray and looked like it was made in 80's. It looked really boring so I thought, "great I'm gonna sleep to that one". Suddenly it became very very exiting. There was this guy who broke in to someones house in the middle of night and the whole shit was about this girl and her little brother who tried to escape this guy. It was nothing special for a normal person but fucking intensive for my heart and soul. At the end, the motherfucker thief, kidnapped the little brother and I couldn't sleep.

Despite the fact that I love fiction and also DO fiction myself, I couldn't stop thinking about what was going to happen to that little boy. WHAT THE FUCK????? I tried to convince myself that, it was just a stupid TV serial. Get over it bitch. It didn't work. I was scarred for life!

Please somebody tell me how I can learn to watch fiction and fake blood without thinking it's real???? It makes me sick, nervous and I wanna throw up! HELP ME!